Buzzzz kill

"i'm soooo cold(brrrrr),i am almost heartless,man how my heart aches from the thought of this"


I am cursed with being in the middle of an ironic hurricane of a storm...things are bad all around me and i am beginning to find humor in some sick and twisted places..but i must admit the shit is funny..I am @ a gas station talking to a friend of mine when out of nowhere comes this Bee(buzz) just zooming in and out..now -me i am not payin it any attention but she is freakin out. cause apparently this is some type of STALKER BEE that has been tracking(attacking) her for two days(lol) everytime she comes and gets gas and she is horrified of the impending doom that comes with being stung....well donda don donda don donda don you guessed it Superman had to save the day(thats right fighting crime and insects near you)and faster than a speeding bullet i swat it(splat!!! hands of steel baaybee) thank yew.. high fives and hugs all around, no need for applause just your simple worship of me thats all i require...finito.. right... end of story mmmphh in somebody else's reality! in my world this STALKER BEE has seen one too many horror movies where the villian never dies until killed twice before the credits roll and then your'e still not sure..this titanium plated Bee gets up off the pavement and flies directly in my face(u sneaky mutha...playin dead on me) scares the shit out of me(eeeeeek..that's me screamin like a biatch) i swat at it awkwardly causin the BEE to do a nose dive KAMAKIZE style towards her..hmmmm right between her legs(she's wearin thin scrubs)and it stings her(don't you just love FATE) in her ummm her well u get the picture..the woman screams in horror holding her "u know what" , like she gotta pee and i'm like omg(yeah i said it lol) mouth wide open...i mustard up the nerve and ask is there anything i can do and in a tone probably only audible to dogs and GOD i think she said "No!!!thank you ..you have done enough" i gave a wicked grin and said "do you want me to pull the stinger out or put tabacco juice on it" lol there's that vioce again this time with a look of horror or maybe it was murder as she said in low growling demonic tone"GET AWAY"lmao well fine i can tell when my heroicness is not appreciated so i left as instructed later i found out she had to go to the hospital because it stung the "little man in her boat" and the whole area swelled up ouch..well me being me the sensitive sympathetic type i thought to myself ..this gives a whole new meaning to having a FAT CAT!!!!hahahahaha..........thank you stalker bee wherever you are...lol as always BEE famous or infamous never BEE just in BEEtween

P.s SUPERMAN is back....ready to save your day!

loved lost

what if somene u had dated thanked you for loving them so well..that u made them a better LOVER to the person that they are with NOW..would u think selfishly or would u be happy for them...what if u were STILL IN LOVE with them..it's a dilemna(ain't love always) it's enough to make a great lover like myself hold back a little ...nawwwwww lol as always be famous or infamous fuck being in betweeen

judge jury and executioner

In order to completely satisfy yourself..do you have to completely disatisfy others?..
i wear a size 14..if u'd like to walk in my shoes!
where do u draw the line between your own insecurities and projecting your values or ethics on to others.... are some people that in tune with the world that they have been annoited a spokesman(or for u sensitve types spokeswoman)for your life...... I have lived a few years and have done alot of good things and i've done bad deeds..seen alot of shit and yet by no means am I in a position to convey what or how u are susposed to live( i do give out little insights based on my own experiences,but basically we as people have been given "free will")to interject righteousness into this "only God can judge me" and MY Blood, Sweat and Tears have stained me... i am marked by my past and if u don't have a reel to reel tape of my life..you don't KNOW ME( and for the ones who say" i don't want to know u"...You the one reading the blog... ain't irony a mutha fucker)and u don't like your life so u grasp a bits that i choose to give u of mine and u hate and dissect it based on your own shortcomings...don't come and clean my house when yours is a mess..so if u think throwin stones is goin to do me in well here's a news flash God's been droppin boulders on me all my life and u don't think u can outdo GOD do you. So u do u and let me do me and in the end will settle up the score..because this is a game, i know cause i've played before and lost... as always be famous or infamous ..fuck being in between

hated by many loved by a few

back from the dead
..i have come to a realization kinda late..i’m a ’lil slo’ ,lol bear with me....that there is no honor amongst theives..i would love to believe that my P.I.C(partners in crime) had some kind of code but seein’ it says partners in CRIME there can be no loyalty..i am not naive to the game..jus fuckin fed up with it..the masks we wear..two face mudda fudda’s..all the sayings apply..keep your friends close and your enemies closer..the enemy of my enemy is my friend , etc..erry body wants to wear the crown nobody wants to put in the work..hatin ass nicca’s..somebody’s gotta be the chief and i’m "chief i’ll fuck u up big ballz" imma 5th generation ass whuppa...and this iz not an internet gansta moment..this shit is ..jus that..shit and i can’t stand my own shit so i’m definetly not puttin up with anybody elses..bet dat up..dominoes will fall.. now i know how Ceaser felt..et.. tu.. brute! as always be famous or infamous fuck being in between

love like wine

(LOVE) u don’t realize your an alcoholic until u can’t get any

to my lil’ brah....this "thing" u got or goin’ through is almost like being a drunk, u drink erryday sometimes u drink not to get drunk but jus to have a drink...some relationships are like that too, u get used to certain conviences or situations and u start takin for granted the aspect of what made the relationship jump..like alcohol after a while u forget that drinkin use to be fun and meant hangin out and parties..then u start to drink alone and after that it’s down hill..in some relationships u have to know"when to say when" to complete my analogy u and i both know u started "drinkin alone"(needin space) ..it took guts(women may not agree) to admit you wasn’t ready..how many men can say they walked away from a DIME(most would’ve kept fuckin and pretended) right now you are jus in the withdrawal phase..can’t blame u(u said it in one of your songs ..have you SEEN my bitch lol)... but i can say ..I TOLD U SO lol..and this is not a knock on anything or anybody and only 2 people know da real deal.. u and her, anyways u know it’s all good..jus do U..ya feel me and let errythang be errythang..so cheeers!!!! drink up and remember everythang in moderation that means no arabian harem.lol as always be famous or infamous fuck being in between
p.s for those that know me, know that i was(still)an alcoholic and i don’t drink any more ,i don’t take it lightly ..now only if i can get a hold of my sexual addiction...mmmmhhhmmm...naaaaaaaaawww!!!! lmao

the lil things

If i was ATLAS.. i'd drop the World for this girl
...why is it that when u are with someone u don't say the things that need to be said or do the things that need to be done..even if it's the lil things we still sometimes won't do them..if it's rubbin your lady back or or her feet if she's tired or cookin her a meal or if she's pregnant rubbin her belly down with coco butter, or just plain doin somethin when not asked..i think if u did it that way u wouldn't be wondering what went wrong when shit goes wrong..but (u knew it was comin...)some mutha fuckas won't appreciate it no matter what u do ...u will be taken for granted by some bitch or some asshole who u thought was somethin they ended up not being..so be careful..do the little things..say what u mean..mean what u say..but just don't polish any old rock and expect it to be a diamond...as always be famous or infamous fuck being in between..

laugh now cry later

does comedy come from pain?
some people have such real life basic humor..that doesn't come from a "joke" but born out situations be it embarrassing, painful,symbolic, or whatever..dave chappelles show was one.... all the shit you laughed about secretly or thought about about sayin within "your group" u you laughed because u knew that shit was funny..Kat williams is another one..pimp got some serious mind skills he is the guy in "your group " just waitin for you to say some dumb shit so he can call u out an run with it ..you're embarrassed but u laugh because u know the shit is funny..but my question is why do all the great funny comedians live such tormented lives..is it the stress of having to be funny 24/7 or is it pain that fuels their comedy..theres a long list..belushi..pryor..i could go on..i just wish kat williams all the best and a quick recovery. I just hope "pimp down" isnt a cry for help..as always be famous or infamous fuck being just in between....

may i have the check...please

Phoenix Rison, Phd
the doctor is in...i think?
for the emotionally insecure(this is for the GUYS)...YOU SHOULD ALWAYS CHECK YOUR GIRL(im talkin about examinin your relationship with her)..NEVER let another guy know u are worried about him and your lady..it empowers the guy doin the chasin..u will make yourself look like a bitch ass nicca(definetly DO NOT do it over the internet) It's like this,.. If u are at the top of your game and handling your shit..trust me on this, your woman WILL NOT look,talk or wanna hang out with another man..no matter what rumor or hater pop up.. u will be love proof(its not 100% but close some people are just born ho's..if thats the case whats love got to do with it ..ha ha i been wanting to say that..lol)..buuuuut if you are not handling your biz..then adios mi amore(yes im bi lingual..lol) she will leave u or play u ...most of u dudes are bitch ass niccas.. so she will play(sorry women can sense a weak pussy mutha fucka a mile away) ..so don't run up on a guy or send texts or whatever, people get hurt, love or the lack of it will get u killed..so put the blame where it belongs(its either fight or flight) and i'm speakin from experience from both sides..i've been to the valley and the moutain top so listen to me it's simple logic: YOU get fucked up and she'll still be fuckin..aint life a bitch..lol now only if I CAN get back to MY mountain top..... as always be famous or infamous fuck being just in between

Bah humbug..leave da cookies on your bed stand

bah hum bug why is xmas so blue?
leave your door unlocked and the light on I..er ummm I mean cause Santa is on his way
Of all the moments in a year two days seem to bring out the most emotions..Xmas and new years..i have battled with these two behemoth holiday demons for years..playin the "xmas is just another way to go broke and it don't mean a thing" card or the new year is just another day to pretend the next 364 is goin to be better than the last 365 wtf!! i've got xmas figure out i think..i came to a conclusion that (bear with me u know how i like to reach for a point) that it is like that one moment u had great sex or that time u got really high or the party u went to that was just fuckin' awesommmme lol or the club u went to where all the girls were 10 and all the guys fly..u know what i mean? u want every time be like that time ..<> thats xmas! u had one or two good years when u were lil..u know..u got what u wanted your parents or family or friends were happy u ate, u played and u felt the magic of xmas then 'poof! it was gone..one year no toys ..cant afford whatever..no santa clause..no money ..friends get wateva..u grow up..the world is big and cold and mean..life happens..but on the 25 th of dec u get a chance to escape to try to relieve that moment or if you are bless share that moment with people u love..thats why it feels lonely to some because the moments and the memories are few and far between...while a host are merry , most are blue..which leads to the new year its a change a time wash away or reflect on whats good and bad in your life..which most of us like to introspect on the bad..but me not this new year not gonna do it nope not gonna be blue or worry 'bout the bad, i'm gonna be FUCKIN merry even if i have to take my left side of my brain and kick the right side of my brains ass to do it i swear by ol st nicks big fat jolly HO HO-ing ass im gonna be happy dammit!!! and everybody around me is gonna be fuckin happy and like it..so Merry Xmas and Happy New Year bitches!!! Have a coke and a smile from your friendly neighborhood BACK DOOR SANTA....remember santa comes once a year i can come every friday.lol ..mmmm sugar cookies.. as always be famous or infamous fuck being just in between

a fine thin line

is love and pain the same?
You LOVE someone so much it HURTS to think of life without them...without them the PAIN makes u realize how much u LOVED being with them....So you HATE the fact that u could LOVE someone that much that it HURTS to ever want to LOVE again...Now your HEART HURTS every time u feel LOVE.,,To the point where the line between LOVE and HATE becomes thinner..And u begin to HATE LOVE..But the PAIN wont let u "LOVE to HATE"....cause the emptiness that echoes through your soul..Will always yearn to be fill with L> O> V> E !I guess love is pain and in the end they feel the same as always be famous or infamous fuck being just in between

Time flies

is there rest for the weary?

..oh well i guess i'll sleep when i die..mmmhm iz death really sleepin, when u guyz get there hit me back and lemme know. i am a boderline insomniac i sleep for 'bout 3 to 4 hrs a nite and then walk aound all day like a Zombie from one those bad b-horror movies slow and sludge like, like i'm listening to a old dj screw mixtape..it seems there are never enough hours in the day and i'm alwayz late..people here say i'm on "drug dealer" time (you know..i'll be there in a 'sec..3 hrs lata..lol)well thats me, i'm COMIN' its just takes me a lil bit longer(watch it keep it clean )..i have a lotta shit to do and neva get it done..i'm looking into cloning, i'll keep the SEX part but i'll let the clone handle everythang else, u gotta know how to delegate authority lol..anywayz i'm suspose to be somewhere right now, not gonna make it there on time either..i got rep to uphold oh well i might as well leave..damn this time space thing..as alwayz be famous or infamous fuck being in between

blazin

How will you be remembered?
Many say black represents death and thus can be used as a symbol to express vengence towards a foe. Or suggesting as a meaning for BLACK ROSES the death of old habits, thus signaling REBIRTH....... this is my morbid moment..but people have asked me why do i end my blogs with "be famous or be infamous fuck being in between", well it's my self motivation motto.. it just means don't go quietly into the night,rage against the storm,stand in the eye of the hurricane and hold your middle finger up shouting "i'm number one" it a mindset of how you wanna be remembered you know will they speak your name in a sort of reverence in their voice like "man you remember the time... or God i can't believe he used to...you get the point. Our lives are already insignificant why further the cause by wallowing in meekness..we all can't go down in blaze of glory but we can take little moments and make them last a lifetime so don't get lull to sleep cause before you know it your time of life will pass you by,.. in the meantime be famous or infamous fuck being in the middle(between)

who will watch over me

Is there such a thing as a TRUE friend?
The test of faith doesn't come when Angels are by your side..your faith is tested when you think they have seemingly all flown away.why is it that when you need someone they are not there for you...but in the good times,like when the sun is shining you can find them right by your side basking in the light...then the clouds come,the rain, then the storm and they are nowhere to be found leaving you to face whatever comes your way. Only to try to return when the rainbow is bending around the corner..damn those fair weather friends!..it's ok though cause i can see clearly now that the rain is gone..it's gonna be a bright sun shiny day....but i'm wonderin if the clouds return can i stand under somebodies umbrella.. if not..... i aint gonna worry cause I CAN STAND THE RAIN...can you ? as always be famous or infamous fuck being just in between

ps one of my boyz i went to school @ A & M died r.i p. big mack aka the JOKSTER.. ill play a mp3 melody of thug mansion, cross roads, and gansta lean but right now all i can hear is eric clapton's tears in heaven...tell God about the time we put the skunk in jackie's car..damn i'm laughing man i'm still laughing lol .amen

not my fault

irony and karma the end dont they always win?
life has a sarcastic bite to it..its like that old southern woman sittin on a porch its done seen all and heard all nothin gets by and no crap is flung but by her...you know the kind..anyways i'm in this kind of mood because just when i think i got this @%$# figured out wham something throws me for a loop..listen for all intent and purpose i am an evily delicious guy which means i have the charm of a devil..i'll make you sin and let you think it's your idea. my mom says i was born with a crooked smile she calls me a snake charmer yeah i know warm and fuzzy right she's old school broomstick,a shoe ,thick belt or whatever object that can cause trauma kind of woman but one crooked smile from me and its let the ice melting begin lol i know im bad for it "how can i use my own mother" you say! well......easy duh!(did u miss the i'm evil part, lol) plus she's a woman j/k i had to say it! well lately i have tried to go a different direction and try the other side of this thing and (gulp) be nice without a hidden agenda-i heard there was such a thing so i tried it lol well i thought people were gonna lock me up! see i'm already heavily medicated lol but they thought i O.D'ed on my happy pills(aah the lil blue thingys) turns out if i'm really nice to the people who know me they either grab their wallets,check to see what items are missin or start questioning their girlfriends you know... JUST IN CASE lol they like me being a sarcastic asshole,i'm predicctable that way..like taz in a cage u can rattle it and watch me spin ...its just when i'm sittin still grinnin that gives people the chills..go figure..so the way i see it my being a little off, derranged , and evil keeps everybody else happy so my goin to the dark side is .....THEIR FAULT!... yeah thats it ..i'm just a pawn ..man i feel sooo used..how ironic is that? as always be famous or infamous fuck being just in between
p.s if anybody wants to join me on the dark side..(i have cookies mmmm chocolate chips) ...bring milk...

a good nite

Do you know when i feel @ peace?
Sitting in the dark, late at night and a slow thunderstorm is passing over and the rain taps on your roof inviting you to listen to it's heavenly sent melody in harmony with the rustling of trees swaying as the lightning illumunates the room making shadows dance on the wall to the soft drum roll of thunder and the wind is howlin' like an ol' blues song(can you hear it) and as I listen to it fade away,silence emerges mixed with the faint beat of my heart and my slow rythmic weary breathin from another restless night..i always go to the window and stare out at the stillness and admire in wondorous awe how the the rain sparkles like diamonds on the lawn beneath the partial moonlight and then in the fog and mist on the window i write with my finger "i was here" ......(yawn)as always be famous or infamous screw being just in between

when no means no

who do you believe when noone is believable?
There are two sides to every story and perception of the story lies somewhere between the person telling the truth and the one doing the lying..and nothing is as clear as it should be..take rape for instance the dating kind..a woman's point of view -she can say she felt uncomfortable with the way someone was touching her but doesn't mention it but let's him continue with the occassional "i am not in the mood"..a guys point of view he can say she just needs to be put in the mood besides she's kissing and messing around and 8 times out of ten most women arent in the mood..most guys have to set the mood..i am goin to be hypocritical for the moment IF this was my daughter who came to me on something like that , i am whuppin ass..on the other hand- mixed signals ,alcohol, drugs or whatever else your mood of relaxtion requires will get you in a world of trouble. women hold a power that most don't comprehend. The allure of sex is mind controlling and intoxicating so my best advice to people wanting to aviod these situations is to not sleep naked with the devil because sooner or later he's bound to fuck you and if someone has put you in this situation don't go back to them smilin and put yourself in that situation again..people will read this and say that i am an asshole and i'm being insensitive but i have seen this firsthand.Rumors do just as much damage as the truth so it's nothing that you should toss around lightly like its that gossip game you played in class with a "pass it on" to see how the story changes..lies and tales decieve only you in the end cause someday you'll need someone to believe in you..this goes for the women as well as the men when u tryin to get with someone make sure ya'll get it right or don't get together at all...as always be famous or infamous screw being in between
p.s to my homie...get out of the game before you get played ...i know the deal women -most men warrant whatever happens to them when they push the issue to the extreme but sometimes...5 years damn man

superman lover

If you was to have sex with SUPERMAN could you go back to making love with clark kent?

love the one your with or leave for the one you want..for most men this is easy we are guided by a different force..a inner force that requires little assistance, we can summon this power at will and to top it off it comes with a handy detach button..we do the dirty deed and once were finish it's done..but for most women well there's a whole lotta other stuff that's too complicated for me to even pretend i know...but imma fake it anyway(you women can feel me on that) women are spoiled by design..men spend their entire lives tryin to get over, under, away, around, and in a woman and some men are are so confused by them they just go bat for the other team,lol the name broken down even gives you a hint to the power they posses "WOE MAN" as in woe be to any man who has ever loved a woman j/k.. the reason i am sayin this is that i have a friend who is like a "Clark Kent".He has and will do anythang for his lois lane, she wants for nothin except you guessed it SUPERMAN(and no i am not the superman in question although i am flattered,) she left him for a "maybe".. i guess i am not the guy to sympathize with him on this cause being a former playa i am all about the emotion and passion in someone, you know it's part of love's hustle. you lose some' you win some, but every now and then even as cold hearted as i can be sometimes you kinda root for the Good guys.. but don't worry Clark, Lois will be back..cause she is his kryptonite...and besides you can't save the world and save a ho' ..okay i take that last bit back, but it was funny cause i use to be captain save a ho'..man aaaah the good ol' dayz lol.....for real tho' we all been there and done it and had it done to us, it's part of the game .you play at your own risk..and for the record my SUPERWOMAN or women..meagan goode, jessica alba, alicia keys, or drew barrymore..now any one of them and its kiss the kidz good-bye baby see ya when i see ya lol anywayz do what you do and hope it dont get done to you as alwayz be famous or infamous fuck being in between..

p.s after being slaughtered by superman who would wanna go behind that..(sigh) i can only imagine how those guyz feel about me lol..man of steel indeed..but lately it's been faster than a speedin bullet lmao

u lil devil

ive been through alot in my brief life but as always i persevere. I am startin to get a sense of how my life will play out ..i got a new motto or slogan for my frequent mishaps or misdeeds it's "my pitchfork keeps gettin caught on your halo" so to everybody in love with someone who is bound to self destruct(like me lol). just realize without pain youll never appreciate joy(bad boy...good sex lmao)..so stand in the rain with me and wait on the sunshine and ladies wear a white t shirt ,aint no sense gettin wet and not let me....i mean er ya man enjoy it lol as always be famous or infamous dont be just in between

flyin so low

When the night approaches why do we get lonely?okay confession time..i am scared to be alone..there i said it my big black azz is scared to be alone ,well let me clear that up i'm scared of being lonely. I hate to sleep alone it makes me feel empty like something is missing. I feel abandon like noone wants me i know it's stupid. but one day i know being such an asshole - people will soon tire of my attitude and i will have to deal with it. if only i could get rid of my thorns then maybe somebody could hold me without bleeding. Such is the fate of a Rose.... pretty to look at but prickly to touch.......as always be famous or infamous fuck being just in between

too high

sometimes you get to a point in your life where you do shit and say fuck consequences...you get too full of yourself, as they say in the country "you get on your high horse" but life has a way of equalizing people by knockin you off that "high horse" flat on your ass and it's funny cause most times you don't see it coming when every body else did... as always be famous or infamous fuck being just being in between